October 4, 2006

Worst Mother of the Year Award

Today I feel like I deserve this award. I feel like I'm not doing a good job at motherhood. I don't know what my problem is. I hate when I yell at the kids or lose my temper (which doesn't happen a lot), but has happened the past 2 days. S went to school so sad this morning and it broke my heart. I went in with him and stayed for about 10 minutes to try and make him feel better. If it worked or not, I'm not quite sure.

My biggest fear is that I will do something wrong in raising my children. I hope the best for them, and try as hard as I can to raise them in a happy home. They bring so much joy in my life, and I would never trade my job for the world. It's the hardest thing I've ever done, but also the most rewarding.

Hopefully they won't hold the past 2 days against me, and that they will remember a fun, happy childhood, instead of a one where their mom yelled or got upset.

I guess we all have these days. I hope we'll have better ones coming our way soon.

9 comments:

Gabriela said...

Oh, I'm sorry. I hate it when I feel like a bad mom. Don't give in to those feelings. We do the best we can, and that's all we can do. None of us are perfect.

((((hug)))) (is that how you do that?)

Glass Half Full said...

My I be the fist to admit I too fall in that trap. My attitude goes south and I lose it...to then feel horrible afterwards. My advice: APOLOGIZE!!! It's a good lesson for parent and child.

Sarah said...

We all have those times when we feel like that...when we lose our temper and yell for no reason. I've been down that road. But hold your head up, you're a good Mother, and you should know that. (HUGS)

Nettie said...

Been there, done that. I've yelled too much lately, too. (Teens...grr) Thankfully, kids are very forgiving. Don't beat yourself up too much over it. Maybe it is time for a little "Mommy needs a break" time?

No Cool Story said...

I'm with Nettie, one word: teens.
I was feeling the exact same way last night hoping "they will remember a fun, happy childhood, instead of a one where their mom yelled or got upset".

Sometimes I wonder if my best is good enough. I can just picture my kids on the couch of a psychologist
:(

CHEL said...

We all have those days. You nailed it when you said it's the hardest job, but most rewarding. However, being the hardest job will put us in heated moments. We wouldn't be "normal" if we didn't struggle from time to time. Your kids will still love you and the good always out-weighs the bad.

Lala's world said...

been there done that....and will again I am sure! I think it is great teaching times when we lose it with our kids but then go back and are able to say I am sorry will you forgive me...it's real life and it happens!

itybtyfrog said...

I am glad that I wasn't the only horrible mother yesterday. I hope that the days I am a good mom make up for the days like yesterday. I hope your day was better today.

The Flip Flop Mamma! said...

My daughter's friends mom called her at school to apologize for yelling at her that morning, and she was crying. I think we all go through this...there have been several times when I've yelled, and then had to apologize and ask her forgivness, usually because I wrong!!! You're not a bad mom. But it is hard. I always think that she's old enough to remember stuff, so I need to make those memories great...I fail at this quite often.