Today I feel like I deserve this award. I feel like I'm not doing a good job at motherhood. I don't know what my problem is. I hate when I yell at the kids or lose my temper (which doesn't happen a lot), but has happened the past 2 days. S went to school so sad this morning and it broke my heart. I went in with him and stayed for about 10 minutes to try and make him feel better. If it worked or not, I'm not quite sure.
My biggest fear is that I will do something wrong in raising my children. I hope the best for them, and try as hard as I can to raise them in a happy home. They bring so much joy in my life, and I would never trade my job for the world. It's the hardest thing I've ever done, but also the most rewarding.
Hopefully they won't hold the past 2 days against me, and that they will remember a fun, happy childhood, instead of a one where their mom yelled or got upset.
I guess we all have these days. I hope we'll have better ones coming our way soon.
2 days ago